CRASH! My heart stopped and I found I was holding my breath…. the pieces of the glass seemed to be everywhere. For a long time I just stood there looking at it.
How could I be so stupid !?! Why wasn’t I more careful? Now the precious dish I had been holding on to so tightly was gone….
There was nothing of value left, just a big mess I needed to clean up and I would have to do it VERY carefully so I didn’t get hurt.
Wait, was I hurt already? I carefully examined my hands. Only one small cut, hardly a need for a bandage. And yet I found myself still standing there with all my focus on that cut. The more I looked at it the more it seemed to hurt.
That’s when the “what ifs” started. What if I got hurt more by trying to pick up the pieces? What if someone else came in right now and they got hurt? What if I didn’t find all the pieces? What if they found out I had broken what they gave me? What if things were never right again?
So I stood there… frozen, crying and shaking, stuck in the brokenness of my own making.
Quietly, my husband walked into the room holding a broom and dustpan. Gently he held me till the crying stopped and I started breathing again. He placed a bandage on my finger and guided me to a soft chair. Then he returned to the mess.
As he bent to pick up the biggest pieces I realized that nothing would ever be the same again for the dish. It could never go back to being what it was, BUT maybe the pieces that remained could be used to create something new, perhaps even something beautiful.
That is what God wants to do with us. He wants to take our broken mess and create something beautiful from it. The truth is, he knows. Before we were even born he knew exactly how broken we would become.
He has a masterpiece design in mind and we are a part of it. But so often when we find ourselves in that broken place we stay there, frozen by the pain, “what ifs”, fear and overwhelm. The shock of seeing what we held so dear destroyed is too much for our human heart and mind to bear.
Quietly he whispers… “My ways are not your ways”… “I know the plans I have for you and they are good”… “I came that you may have and enjoy your life”…
Gently he holds us, bandages our wounds and guides us to a place of comfort and safety.
Then he clears the mess. He keeps the broken pieces that fit in his masterpiece and discards the rest. With loving care and his awesome power he fits those remaining pieces into an amazing beautiful place that he designed just for us.
All we have to do is be willing to listen, lean, and let him….